Defeat...

Song of Reference: Selah- Lauryn Hill

Today I feel a bit defeated. I could just kick myself for all those opportunities I have passed up only to find myself here in this position. I thought a transition would be beneficial. I took a leap of faith and feel as though I’ve failed. I just need an answer as to what my next step is. Where am I meant to go?

Being vulnerable without my confidants is not something I am familiar with. I only want them to share in my deepest thoughts and feeling and experience me at my lowest points. Asking for help and assistance from individuals I am not connected with has never been something I have felt comfortable doing.  

There is such a dichotomy between my desire to succeed and being able to relinquish this need to make it on my own and not allow anyone else to stake claim to my success. But who’s to say that’s their intentions, that the only reason they would help is to say “ I made her” and who’s to say that’s a bad thing...

~XOXO Lyric