Song of Reference: Private Party- India Arie

I should write here more... I should express myself more... I should tell people how I really feel and what I really think more... I should stop acting weak... stop allowing others to think I'm weak... to make me look weak... I should just check out of worldly life... buckle down and really focus on myself, my goals, my ambition... stop looking at other's lives with disdain because I failed to do what I needed to, to ensure I didn't end up here... I need to grind more... I need to love me more... I need to talk to God more... pray more... eat more... meditate more... go to my happy place and cry for joy more... I have to want my life more... want better for myself... stop confirming decisions with people acting in the best interests of themselves... stop blaming others for my failures... stop going places and being around energies that just suck the life out of you... when you feel discomfort remove yourself... start stacking your layers again... learn some new skills... read more... smile even more. You are the captain of this ship and even when it's sinking you should be moving the sails, cutting lines and ties and commandeering it to safety. Please protect your energy baby girl. Its the most precious thing to your well-being....

~XOXO Lyric